For you im sorry!

This is hard for me to just sit back and keep quite while you hurt while you openly go through something.. that I ...just can't help you out with. I love you I always have and I don't think that I'll ever stop but I can't I hate sitting back when I know your hurting.. I bet you tell others your fine when your not I bet when your alone or by your self for a second you cry a lil I bet you get annoyed when others say oh its just a season you'll get better or when they say they know how you feel.. when you know they don't!! They don't know your pain.. I bet sometimes you feel like its soo loud like you can't hear your own thoughts. And some times your thoughts are soo loud you just can't hear period...they say they are there for you but yet when you really need them they are not there or they can't get to you.. they say they love you but yet do they know what that really means?? Can they say that with all their heart they love you??
Can they say that they would drop everything just to be with you?? But all that does not matter.. why because I've told you just like I know for a fact that your Mom has told you.. You are a strong young woman and anything you set out to do you will accomplish.. you my friend are meant for bigger and better things!! I want you to go after them your mom wanted you to go after them..don't just settle for a pile of sand when you can have the beach... don't settle for a Toyota  when you can have a BMW or a Lexus you don't think your worth it but your Mom knew you are! And I know you are too!! And listen your Mom may not be hear on earth but you better bet that she's watching you and loves you very much and wants you to dream and dream big!! You can do this I've got your back I always have.. I love you remember you are a strong woman and you can do any thing.. !

Uhgg Love

They say true love never comes twice. But I've found my love over and over and over again. She is the love of my life it took me sometime to see it but when I did I tried to do everything to keep her! She was the one that held my heart she was the only one who let me be myself around her! I never felt that I need to change who I am or the things I said or the things I did. I was me she knew when something was wrong and she knew when everything was right and when she didn't really need to be around .. those things in themselves allowed me to continue to be me and love her all the more! She was and is my hearts desire.. Without her I feel incomplete I've never understood this I never saw why she completed me in a way that only she could.. I never realized just how much she was a symbol in my life. And over every thing in my life she was and is the solid and the inconsistent in my life. There when she wanted to be but never really there when I needed her.. I'm not trying to paint her to be a bad looking person nope I'm just showing you how I could see past all of the other stuff and still love her all the more..  We aren't ment for each other.. No were not.. we are only ment to be friends.. Will I continue to love her all the same?? Well yes of course.. but she won't be my hearts desire.. I'm here for her if she wants a friend but if not then so be it.. I love you and you know that... !!

What I love you Means to me !

I just wanted to say that I love you..I know I say that a lot and maybe you don't realize what the words mean soo let me tell you what I love you means...
I love you = I want to see you happy
I love you = I want to know that your taken care of
I love you = I don't want you with just anyone
I love you = I want you for myself
I love you = I can't have you so I have to let go.
I love you = I miss you when we don't talk.
I love you = I will fight for you.
I love you = I cry for you when we are apart
I love you = I hurt when you hurt
I love you = I see you every were your not
I love you = I will take care of you when your sick
I love you = I want nothing more than to provide for you
I love you = You make me smile
I love you = You make me want to be better
I love you = You mean the world to me
I love you = The way your eyes shine
I love you = The way you laugh
I love you = The way you smile
I love you = Your sence of humor
I love you = Please give me a second chance
I love you = I would follow you any were
I love you = I forgive you.
I love you =  We can do anything!
I love you = Its us against the world!!
I love you = I dream about us all day and night
I love you = I go crazy without you!!
I love you = I would do any thing for you
I love you = Stay With Me
I love you = I would die for you!

Lies

Lies that's all I ever here and the sad part is I've believed every lie because I thought I could trust you!! Never again will I trust you.. iv never lied you so why do this to me??

F U im done!!

Tonight I cried over you I didn't want to trust me if I could have stopped that I would have but I did you live your life and that's fine I'm not that person.. but every once in a while I would like if every now and then if you would call or write and not just one or two sentences no really talk to me I hate this I feel like I'm begging for you to be in my life.. I don't want that and the worst part is that I am some what happy without you I have people who treated me better than you ever did.. But I really hate how much I miss you!! I wish we never met I wish that instead of me always trying to save this friendship that is clearly not ment to be that you would try to put some effort in to it!!! But who am I Kidding?? Everyday I think I've gotten  a glimpse of you and I have not been able to Not  see you so I get angry for even still while driving around town I'm reminded of you and how the pain is still there...This will never work.. Friendship is a two way street.. and I'm alone on this road.. soo What now??

Dreams

When it comes to you I don't know why I can't stay mad or stay away really it makes no sence to me why when it comes to you I have yet to let go.. soo please maybe you can tell me why?? Its never lasted this long a crush has been over after the first 8months its been 7 years.. why ??

Time tells all!

I never stood a chance.. I don't there is no way I would have one this one.. from the begining I felt something from the begining there was love.. in the middle the getting to know I already knew all I needed to know and that was love.. I knew that time would tell everything just as it is.. I knew the laugh the smile the time the hates the likes the loves I knew what I needed to know.. from the begining I wanted this to work.. I wanted nothing more than for this to work.. as time went on I became bolder but never did the take that step.. in fear it wasn't time.. Love ...I felt Love would bring it together.. when the time was right then the Love would bring us closer.. I wanted nothing more than for this to work I wanted this I fought to make it work I didn't want to open my eyes to see the danger I was falling into.. so I fought and I fought hard.. I've talked about letting go with no intention of moving on.. I just wanted it to seem like I was fighting it while really I wasn't I wanted it to work.. I wanted to be with you.. Time told me.. Time stopped me in my tracks and told me I was wrong that I was pushing it.. Time stopped and set me straight I could see that what I wanted and what I needed were two differnt things that I no longer needed.. In the end that which I wanted to no longer needed.. Time told me every thing just as I knew it would... it just wouldn't give me what I wanted... you..

Baby I

(That feeling when you wanna say what you have been holding on to for a long time to the one you love and the words don't come out you say "Baby I" !!! Hope you enjoy!! ;-) )

Baby I got love for thee
So deep inside of me I don't know where to start
Yeah, yeah
I love you more than anything
But the words can't even touch what's in my heart
No, oh

When I try to explain it I be sounding so insane
The words don't ever come out right
I get all tongue tied (and twisted)
I can't explain what I'm feeling
And I say baby, baby, baby

(Baby I) ooh baby, oh baby, my baby
(Baby I) ooh baby, baby I
All I'm tryna say is you're my everything baby
But every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Baby, baby

Baby I'm so down for you
No matter what you do, (real talk), I'll be around
Yeah, yeah, oh baby
See baby I been feelin' you
Before I even knew what feelings were about
Oh baby

When I try to explain it I be sounding all crazy
Words don't ever come out right
I get all tongue tied (and twisted)
I can't explain what I'm (feeling)
And I say baby baby, baby

(Baby I) ooh baby, oh baby, my baby
(Baby I) ooh baby, baby I
All I'm tryna say is you're my everything (baby)
But every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Baby, baby

Straight up, you got me,
All in, how could I not be,
I sure hope you know
If it's even possible, I love you more
Than the word love can say it
It's better not explaining
That's why I keep saying... Baby I

Ooh baby, oh baby, my baby
(Baby I) ooh baby, baby I
All I'm tryna say is you're my everything baby
But every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Baby, baby
Baby
Baby, baby

(Baby I) ooh baby, oh baby, my baby
(Baby I) ooh baby, baby I
All I'm tryna say is you're my everything baby
But every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Every time I try to say it
Words, they only complicate it
Baby, baby
Baby, baby

I don't know what it is that's going on but I hope your alright I hope that you understand I'm here and that I do care.. I hope you see that I'll never do any thing to intentionally hurt you. I hope that you know I'll always be here if and when you wanna talk...I love you I do when I say thes words they mean a lot to me and I hope you see and know that..

Almost Is Never Enough!

Almost is never enough.. almost in love what is that?? "I was almost in love man I'm soo excited!!" Not!! Who ever said Almost is enough needs to go and jump a bridge!!! I was almos in love.. nope let me take that back I was in love!! She was almost in love with me I almost had my true love!! She would have been mine I was just waiting for her to see it when she left she moved away she left before she realized what she was feeling what was right there. I knew what it was and I also know that I may not ever get that chance at that love again.. I know I would love another chance if given but I don't know what I would do if I couldn't have another chance.. I guess I would just accept the fact that I almost had my love in my arms but lost her.. but even after accepting the fact that I lost her Almost is never enough!! 
Inspired by the song "Almost is Never Enough" By ;
Ariana Grande and Nathan Sykes