F U im done!!

Tonight I cried over you I didn't want to trust me if I could have stopped that I would have but I did you live your life and that's fine I'm not that person.. but every once in a while I would like if every now and then if you would call or write and not just one or two sentences no really talk to me I hate this I feel like I'm begging for you to be in my life.. I don't want that and the worst part is that I am some what happy without you I have people who treated me better than you ever did.. But I really hate how much I miss you!! I wish we never met I wish that instead of me always trying to save this friendship that is clearly not ment to be that you would try to put some effort in to it!!! But who am I Kidding?? Everyday I think I've gotten  a glimpse of you and I have not been able to Not  see you so I get angry for even still while driving around town I'm reminded of you and how the pain is still there...This will never work.. Friendship is a two way street.. and I'm alone on this road.. soo What now??