How dare you you know how I feel about you you know that I've had been trying to contact you and still when I let my guard down how come you just continued to hurt me?? How come your still not making and effort to make things right?? How come you don't see it??

If I was to tell her what I was really thinking she would have never let me off the phone so easy.. if she really knew how I was feeling the feeling of just being done I mean she said it the worst thing that could happen was the best thing that can happen!! For me I don't want to live another day in the misery of this struggle.. I wanna die not by my hand though I want God to take me home I'm tired of fighting with the struggles I know there will be much I'll miss out on but really I don't wanna be on this earth any more I just wanna go home with my Heavenly Father.. I'm tired of beingg away from Him soo much so that I'm just ready to go Home!!!  Selfish I know I just can't take it!!!