If it's space you need than let me know I dont want to push you into this friendship I do love you I do care about what makes you happy but some timesn I'm selfish and think only about myself no matter what happens I'm here for you.

You

You make me smile and you make me laugh that to me is important! I don't know how or were things are going with us but I wanna take the time to see were we are going.. I feel soo differnt when I'm with you I don't know how to say that I don't wanna mess things up but I wanna be selfish with you I want to be around you all the time but I know you have a life and your busy and what not its just hard when I see you I just wanna spend a lot of time with you!!

Am i good Enough?

I'm afraid of not being good enough.. or of being too much.. sometimes I know I'm a lot to handle.. but for the most part I'm not sure how to handle my self... I want things to be natural I don't wanna push what isn't there.. I don't want to make thing bigger than what they are.. how to be a better me?? How to make things better how to be faster how to be wiser.. how to be smarter how to be more loving how to be more reseved.. how to take time to just be a friend.. how to just be me with out all of me..

What i really want to say

What I really wanna say

I wanna be yours I wanna see were we go.. I wanna hold your hand I wanna stay by your side and never leave.. I wanna treat every second as if its our last.. I don't wanna be leanint with our time together... I feel as if this is real as if this is supposed to work.. I wanna kiss you I wanna hold your head kiss every inch every part of it... you make me smile and laugh and just wanna be around you even when I'm mad at you....damn you don't even know when I'm mad at you.. I know your not ready to see it but I do and one day your eyes will be opened lol till then...

Hey soo I know I've been gone a while I've been writing just not posting lol any way I'm back I have a broken heart and ready to vent! Later

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What I don't understand is how ppl can be such ass holes really I've been nothen but kind and loving how come ppl just use you and are never there when it really matters...?? Fuck this bull shit!

Good morning Shawn. I just wanted to say a prayer for you this morning ok. (Dear God I lift up Shawn to you I pray that he has a blessed day today God I pray that you will guide his every step Lord let the words that come out of his mouth be kinde Gentle words Father allow him to be energetic today.. Lord you know this mans heart allow him to want to see what you have instore for his life even if its now me Lord I just ask that You will continue to walk with him daliy and that he will continue to seek after you.. I love you and in you're name I pray Amen).... Have an amazing day today Shawn don't allow anything to bring you down ok talk to you when I do .... Ann =)