I just don't understand Why i feel the way i do.. every one has tried to help Mom Dad sisters Brothers Friends closed family and even those who don't know me that well... My Pastor has even tried but i really don't know how to change the way that i feel its a felling of well a lot of different things I don't know whats wrong with me really i don't I've tried to change but its still the same thing over and over !!! and its getting worse !! i hate this !!!

Taking to the Moon Bruno Mars!!!

In my last post i said that i felt that she set me up well I was wrong to say that i was just angry that i could not talk to her the way i wanted to.. I find myself missing talking to her she was a great friend.. and I know that... well I believe i know her well enough to say that she wouldn't do that to me.. any way I bought Skittles the other day I think i'll give them to her as a sign to say that there is no hard feelings... I'm very Great full for the time spent.. I really hope that one day that we could be the Friends that God intended us on being... =) any way I'm taking every day at a time, and praying for real healing... the sooner the better then i could get back to living my life with a real friend and sister.. anyway i just wanted to say sorry for the way that came out in my last post. I wrote out of anger and that was not right any way I'm going to go Talk to the moon !! ok later all =D

I don't know what this is..Im not sure if its hate or just anger

I don't know what I'm doing.. I'm not sure if its ok to say hey I miss you or should i just keep quite?? I don't know what i'm doing or even how to just be ok its hard right now its hard to just be ok to just say im good i'm mad at you i really don't know what to do.. i know i should be happy that we talked but then again im not. Im not because she acted as if nothing happen and we really had not seen each other in a long time she acted as if we had a life time of talking between us and just a second had passed.. i think it really bugged me that really all this time i've been missing my friend and she has yet to say sorry or even really try to see the harm in what she did. and then i also feel at if her coming up to me was a set up like she's playing a game i really don't know what to feel any more.. but for now i'm not happy at all for now i'm truly hurt. for now i'm scared.. for now I miss my friend!!