You have no idea what i'm feeling.
You don't know what its like to not have some one that you really enjoy being around.
For years i have been looking for that one person who will be there even when i'm in my moods. You have no idea how it is to have person after person look at you like your just good for the time being.
I'm sorry that its this way i really don't try to be this way please believe me i wanna be happy and not Give a rats ass about what others think. Really i do but even when things are good i've always had the fear of losing that great thing that i have.
In this case its Losing you i really don't want that but i know the more that i have these moods the better the chances of me losing you and really it will kill me if i did cause your my other half the other Half of my friendship charm or the Yin and Yang.
You have to know that i really do hate feeling this way but its what i'm feeling and i know what i'm feeling and its Just PURE JEALOUSY.
I hate the fact that I am but i have to tell you now.
I guess i just feel like when they are around you will end up enjoying them better than you do me i guess i don't know. I really am sorry i probably shouldn't have said any thing i know but this is the way i am and really i'm trying not to be this way ok really believe me when i say im sorry .
