My Apologies

For the longest time I wanted to be with you well more like continuously be around you.. yes I developed feelings for you that were just all in my head and non of it was real..I thought you needed me I thought if I was there that you would really need me one day.. I was wrong the only person who needed anyone was me I needed you to make me feel wanted to help me feel good about myself... I hated being away from you and I hated not being genuinely wanted..it wasn't until recently when my heart was challenged by these young adults that are trying to finds their way that i realized just how stupid I was being how selfish I was being. As of lately I've wanted to apologize to you for everything.. for continuing to push especially after knowing that you didn't want me around or even feel that way about me.. in sorry for continuing the way I did and I promise to be better in keeping my distance.. from you if that's what you want.. any way take care know your missed.. always

            Love 
                  Ty

I know my heart is torn in two, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, I don know what I'm doing with all of this, I'm confused, I feel like I'm losing my mind, I just want to be happy!!! These are all saying to decribe how your feeling at different times soo why am I feeling all of this at once?? I have a love hate thing going. I have that one person in my life that will always mean the world to me no matter how many other people come into my life when ever I try to move one I hesitate in fear of losing her for ever.. I hate the fact that I may never get to see her again but I hate even more knowing that somethings going on and I can't be there to help.. I was told that maybe she was taken from me because I wouldn't be able to handle everything that was going on in her life and that when everything cleared when the time is right that she would come back.. Although more than anything in the world I would love for her to come back and for us to be together but my question is would she ?? Did she care enough about me to come back or would she just decided to stay away..?? My heart is heavy with all of these questions and even more soo