Wow what a day! All I can say is it was great!! Lol got to work talked to the boss things still looking up thank God!! It got busy. Made some one feel extra special !! Lol saw many lil babies that are just soo cute... Can't wait to have one of my own! Any way saw my friend and talked her into hanging out tonight instead or tomorrow! Lol We went to dinner! Had some really great food some really great conversation and some really great laughs! Lol. We left and went to a park to just chill it was awsome I'm telling you this is one of the best things I've ever done I'm so happy I feel as if this was much needed as if I've been waiting to do something like this for a long time! I felt as if I could stay there for ever I felt like I've known her a really long time! I started to be honest about something but didn't know how that would go.. so I just kept to my self about that! But we are going to see each other again tho! A picnic or maybe beach trip or even fishing lol we'll have fun some how some way !

I saw her today when I came in she came up to me with this huge smile and hugged me I returened the hug not problem at all.. we have this history that when ever we are together with other ppl we act as if nothing has ever happened between us! Which is fine with me but sometimes inside I feel as if we are playing games sometimes its just really hard to know were we stand! I prayed for her while we were at this event and that's was cool for me I guess! So when the event was over and I didn't see her I went to find her I told her that I'm tired of talking through other people about us I told her that if we are gonna be friends then we need to talk it out
She said that she agrees that she missed our friendship! Lol I thought that's a load of bull! Any way I'm not going down this road again! Fool me once shame on me fool me twice ! Well you know !! I'm not doing that again!

I've been thinking about her I don't know why maybe it has to deal with the way she looked at me the other day or maybe it had to do with they way she looked! I don't know really don't know. I notice that I got angry afterwards espisacaly when I wasn't able to talk or see my friend! I meam what is that?..... any way I feel like such a child some times.... and I hate it! I told her that something would happen and this is it!!!! Any way I hate that when I see her I feel this way and the fact that she looked so differnt but yet the same well that blew me away!! I'm trying not to go down this pathway again!! I'm trying live the way I'm supposed to! I made up a song yesterday kinda about her and then not about her! Not cool!!!