I never like to admit to feeling lonely but today I will I believe that its real depresstion that has me feeling this way.. I hate not having any one to talk to my family puts up with me for so long and well really I just want a friend.. one that is no longer around for me to go to.. I feel as if I messed up one of the best friendships I have ever had.. I don't understand what has really happen that we no longer talk.. I wish things were better.. I miss my friend and I even understand that she may not want me around and if that's so then so be it.. I can never say I didn't care or that I didn't love her or that I wasn't there b3cause I did care I did love her because I did and I tried to be there as much as possible but when someone pushes you away what are you todo?? Love is unconditional and that's what I've tried to do is to be unconditional..