A friendship gained! One that could have been lost or stolen away.. I will never really understand why things didn't go the way I thought them to go but I won't become broken hearted by it either! Ha I'll continue to smile and love the way I have been I'll continue to support and help were I can! I would like to think that ours is one that will never be broken that we could endure any thing but I have to be realistic!! I do still love you but not as much as I had... strange I know even for me to say!

Much to my dissapointment the friendship was not gained nor was it restored more like ruined for the fact of un trust! I feel as if my actions are far worse than that of a honest person!! That of the heart that of right and truth!!

I've wanted to express how I feel right now!!! But the words don't come to me they have all been taken away!! I'm over you but I'm not I don't look at you and want you next to me I don't want to wipe away your tears and hold you in my arms so that you will never cry again I don't wanna kiss your every hurt to make thing all better I don't want it to be just you and I any more but I do want you in my life... maybe that's a bad thing I want what we used to have I want to be able to talk to you agan I want your friendship back it was the best one I had I know we need our space yeah no doubt about that but really come on let's talk at lest!! Its been some quiet boring night when I don't talk to you not every night just some lol any way you've always known what I've wanted think it over and take care ok miss you my friend!!

Dude this is some serious bull straight up Bowllllll shit are we really not gonna talk be cause of feelings??? That's stupid !! Yeah I should have been over it and I think I was but really I can't stand not talking to you !! Lol today some stupid shit happened and all I wanted to do was tell you bout it I'm up now cuz I haven't talked about it and I wanna talk to you bout it not Jamie not alejandra and not christina nor my sisters no lol I wanna talk to my friend!!! And I can't because I thought I could talk you about something that was bothering me but instead it weired you out!! I won't do it again I won't feel it again!! This time it will be gone I promise!!! I hate to beg Gen but for my sanity I have too lol this is kinda funny to me that we are really gonna do this lol dude Gen come on!! Let's for get it kk let's talk please!! Don't make me get mame to stare at you through the racks next week come on!! Lol I am sorry for bringing that up and like I said I won't do it again but dude not talking to you these past few days is worse than what I felt before lol !! What do you say?? Can I get a second chance?? =/ plewasss?? Lol