If I was to tell her what I was really thinking she would have never let me off the phone so easy.. if she really knew how I was feeling the feeling of just being done I mean she said it the worst thing that could happen was the best thing that can happen!! For me I don't want to live another day in the misery of this struggle.. I wanna die not by my hand though I want God to take me home I'm tired of fighting with the struggles I know there will be much I'll miss out on but really I don't wanna be on this earth any more I just wanna go home with my Heavenly Father.. I'm tired of beingg away from Him soo much so that I'm just ready to go Home!!!  Selfish I know I just can't take it!!!