I don't know what's happen but I feel as if some how things changed... your not there any more your not around your not with me any more.. I'm trying to get past this I know its time and I am but I'm afraid of letting you down.. I always have been.. you've been strong for me and it was time to be strong for you and I let my feelings get in the way..I allowed my feelings to dictate what I wanted.. the worst part about this is I feel like I've lost my best friend.. I feel like I no long have that one person in my corner who was always there.. and also I feel like I had been played from the begining like you knew how this would end how you wanted it to end.. I hate the fact that your so far away I hate not knowing I hate trying to figuer out what this is were things are going one moment your there the next your gone and not just gone up the street or in the next town or even out of country nope gone as if you never exsited.. I don't understand why I don't know why even after I asked you to please don't disappear on me.. first chanse you got what did you do..?? You left you never cared if you did well I just don't know I guess I really wanted to see more than what was really there.. I miss you my friend.. I miss you soo much.. but I guess you don't care..if you did you would have wrote me before I wrote you!! Real friends care Real friends call.. .Real friends wouldn't tease... I'm tired of playing Games with you!! I'm tired of every time I'm good you come around and mess me up then disappear all over again.. I don't understand you I don't know who does that to people they care about.. I guess its