Promise/ Im Sorry..

I've been waiting and still nothing soo I ask my self why? If everything was going so great before why did they change? I'm the same person I've always have been from day one yes somethings have changed but for the better.. but the person I am hasn't. So again I ask why?? What changed?? And why now?? What made you think its ok drop a friend the way you've dropped me you dropped the one person who even after all this would still be there if you needed..I dont know what's wrong with me that I would still be there for you?? I don't know why I felt the ok to even care about you the way I do! I know I get it you've been hintting for me to forget you to let you go I know you haven't called even though you could I know you haven't wrote me back even though you could. I know I'm not dumb.. I just can't let you go I'll stop trying to reach you but I can't stop loving you.. no matter what I've tried..it has yet to help or get me over you.. I've loved you a really long time and just got to the point where I wanted to get what it is that I wanted.. and that is you!! I've told you soo many times maybe like every day I've told you any time we talked I told you how I felt or that I loved you!! So this is nothing new!! Don't act surprised! I know others might not agree with this but since when have you done what every one else tells you or cared what they thought?? Any way just know this: "I would never hurt you babe, I open my heart I give it to you let the whole world know I'm in love with you whatever you want babe I'll do I know I don't want nobody else but you! " "Ciara Promise"

I'm keeping this just as I wrote it but let me say yes I'll still love you always but I won't be in love with you I'm not in love with you..I know you read these and I know you have let others read them.. you know there was a time when I was ashamed about how I felt about you.. then I got to a point when I realized that saying how I felt was better than keeping it in but even more so I realized I did wrong by telling others and even after that I was still wrong because I didn't let go I kept pushing.... and I'm sorry.. truly I am..I'm not sure what I want to do as far as moving on because I still want you in my life but I don't feel like you want to be apart of it.. your my friend and I love you but I just hope you forgive me for all the wrong I've done..