The 4th blues

So I'm supposed to be enjoying my self but I can't because I miss my better half.. well the way I see it she's my better half. She completes me even when I didn't know I wasn't complete..I don't know how or what I'm doing any more and what makes things worse is that I feel as if I'll never get over her.. No matter how many days pass pass by I still miss her I still dream about her I still worry and wonder how she is.. I miss my babies but in all I miss her so much. I miss her optimisim, I miss the way she hated every one but me lol. She knew how it would crush me if she ever told m she didn't want me around so she just let me be around! Secretly she enjoyed my being there as much as much as I enjoyed being there! I loved her smile her worry her laugh the way she pretended. To be mad at the girls but with one lookat the right moment & she's laughing &jokeing with the girls.. There is no doubt that she loves her girls more than anything. Any way I love to watch her sometimes just allow a smile come across her face because with her there are moments when life is complete. With her is were I wanna be. Whith her is were I learned to really be my self.. With her I know not to worry with her my life makes since. I understand it with her. She makes me smile all the time she listens to me she understands me she waits for me (sometimes lol). I love her! She's my love.. No one can ever make me forget my true love.. the one love I would have lost everything for.. I told her once no one has ever made me feel this way before I told her I don't ever think I'll ever get over her she said just keep looking I told her I have and every one I've ever come across has parts of them I like but not the whole of them if I took all the parts of the once I've liked and put them together I have her and no one will ever compare to her! So no I'm not going to continue to look because I don't want any one else but Her! I LOVE HER! She's the only one who I would ever consider just drop every thing I ever believed in for her.. I loved and do love her! But she's gone so there's nothing now.. well night may every day bring you happieness and Joy! May your days be filled with smiles. And love the way I've loved!
07/04-05/2013