Dreaming of you..

You know I love you and always will.. I've been dreaming about you again.. the first time I didn't think any thing about it cause you put the pictuers of you and the girls up..but tonight my dream was about you and my babies who I miss soo much.. any way I had convinced my mom and a friend of hers and some other people to take a trip to needles I don't know how I knew were you were but I did and we headed out.. we were just arriving to town and about to turn on this street when I saw you... Cassie was with you and the girls. You both were just talking away and laughing,just enjoying the time walking home.. I was in the back seat and the window was down but you were looking down while walking across the street so I didn't think you saw me.. The reason I was able to get my mom and others to come was to check out this house that was vacant in your neighborhood. I didn't know if it would be close to you or not but that wasn't a worry of mine really we went in to and already furnished house and would be there for the next few days.. I looked out side to see you come up the street and saw you walk right up to the house next to mine.I was so surpised I didn't know we would be next to each other.. Cassie saw me and said something to you.. I turned away to go put my things away and did just that. About 10 minutes later there was a knock at the door I went to it and stood there for a second or 30 then I opened the door.. there standing in jeans and a blue blouse with your head down never seeing the door open was you.. I said uh you looked up and I've never seen you so excited to see me. You came in and just had this huge smile and I just hugged you I'm sure my excitement met yours maybe too much because my house mates were all looking like what the heck..lol I didn't wanna let you go not again.. but I knew I had too but I kept you close I just grabbed your hand and brought you close so we walked like that lol I turned around and saw Roo I got excited all over again and we went and sat next to my baby so I could give her a big hug Jade had been outside and had yet to come in I was scared they wouldn't know who I was but even when I saw Roo she knew she smiled at me and I knew she knew who I was.. you and I talked and just stayed close as if just to take a second away the other would dissaper..I guess that was more for me than you lol I wouldn't let you go..I didn't want too.. I never have.. Well I guess that says a lot about me.. I'm sorry.. maybe this dream was for me to see and understand its time to let you go for real? I don't know what do you think?? Do you not care and this is all me or what?? You can't be silent any more 7 years its time to talk.. how do you really feel?? Its time to talk!!