Heartbreak..

I can't do this right now day in and day out one person on my mind you.. I dream about you consantly even when I don't want to I see you walking the streets at night or I see you drive past me sometimes I even see you walk down the isle of the store I'm in.. if you ever had a movie mad about your life Jessica Biel would play you thank God she hasn't been in a lot of new movies.. and the one that's out I only saw once.. but even so I miss you soo much it hurts not to be able to talk to my best friend.. I'm starting not be able to breath again.. I find my mind just wandering off I'll be driving and sometimes when I pass a traffic light I have to look back to make sure I didn't run a red! You are constanly on my mind.. I miss you.. I guess I feel as if I need you and I always have just never really noticed it.. I don't sleep as well I'm up all types of the night.. I feel a hole in my heart..I know it sounds cliche but its not its true.. I find my self just wanting to cry all the time but its not till I'm alone do I allow my self to truly do so and even then I still don't cry sometimes.. I miss you terribly really I do I just don't know what to do any more I wanna talk to you but then if I do what happens?? Will I be ok after?? I don't know what I truly would go do.. any way I have to go now just some food for thought.. I'm not doing good at all.. I miss you love..