I don't know what I'm doing any more.. I feel alone all the time and on top of that I miss my friend soo much I kinda don't have any one to talk to any more..that just makes me a loner I know been one most of my life any way.. I can't do this any more.. really I can't I don't know how to move on I wanna move on I wanna just get things together but I don't know how.. I don't have any thing to look forward to in life every since you left I've been kicking my self for not doing what I should have done for not coming by that Friday I started to but decided not too I wish I would have I wouldn't have regret maybe I would know where you are and how you all are doing but I didn't and I don't.. that's my biggest regret because no matter how much I try to shake it I do love you I love you more than I've loved any one ever before I love you so much id give up every thing just to be with you.. I would tell you every day how beautiful you are how much of an amazing person you are how when you smile I can't help but smile because aslong as I'm with you the world could be in ruins and burning and going crazy but as long as I was with you and my babies well nothing I mean nothing else would matter.. I love you soo much babygirl I don't think I can ever truly get over you.. when ever I try to just move on and fine another muse for the time I can't not even the guy that calls me almost every other day has my attention any more..you my love are the only person whom which I love with my whole heart.. you PMA you are my love always have been and always will be till the day I die..( which between you and I may be sooner than you think) I hate missing you I hate not being able to see you or talk to you whenever..
07/06/13