I miss her sometimes I know its not fair but I do.. it's not fair for me nor is it fair to him I can't say that I love him because there is a lot that he refuses to share with me .. And I'm supposed to have enough faith for the both of us?? I don't know but what I do know is that I really do care about him I wish he would open up to me then I have nights like tonight Shes  on my mind I miss her but I don't want too.. I know that she  is happy right were she is, well at lest that's what it seems like.. I'm not gonna fight I won't I've fought for her once she was my world her and the girls were  my world I would have done anything for them.. but now I'm stepping back right now before I hurt my  heart once more..I can feel it break a bit just like the day I said "Goodbye"  I'm sitting here listening to love songs by the sweet voices of Ed Sheeran and that can get me in trouble lol I love the voice.. any way my love is real and I hope you see that before it's too late ..