#$¢€ why do I even bother.. I don't get what I did or even whats wrong.. every since you left you tell me your out here but never were so we could meet up and when ever I write you seem to just jump offline I don't get it .. I wanna hate you, I want to be mad but I can't I want to have nothing to do with you but I can't I want to forget you but I don't... I never have been able too.. not when it came to you every one else I was able to let got but not you its just crazy... I don't know how to do this...all I ever do now is try to avoid thinking about you cry my self to sleep and think about you more.. I'm not trying to be obsessive..but I do know it seems that way i know..but I've never been good at this and I just wanna die I sound soo stupid wanting to be around you all the time I don't get what this is or when it started..or why.. I see you every were still and it doesn't help you say your back...and I still have yet to see you.. I hate missing you.. I'm working again but I still have time so I try and busy it with church and just other things and on top if all of this I'm sure my friends are tired of hearing me talk about you and how much you mean to me and how I hope to run into you again..and even what I would say or do if I saw you again....I miss you soo much I hate myself for not just being honest the first time around..!!! I love you Babygirl!! Always will..take care..
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