To Letting go and Starting anew..

January- June you were my world!! And I loved every second we spent together.. even when I wasn't sure even when I wanted to be mad at you for making plans with me then bailing last minute with out telling me.. I loved every second!! I loved you I had the life I was working next to full time my bossed loved me its looked like I was headed to get a raise soon.. I had good friends things at church were going well and I had you and the girls.. love... life was good at the time Pat hadn't moved and I was still happy enjoying life.. then you leave and every thing fell apart.. my grandpa died I loss my Job and love was gone.. none of it mattered with out you and now well even though I'm trying to move on I still miss you a lot.. solid.. stable .. a rock... you.. for me you were that and somehow my rock broke some how my foundation has crumbled.. a song by Ed Sheeran said it best he says..                                   
                               GIVE ME LOVE
      
                      (Pain spots of Tear drops on my shirt
                   I told you i'd let them Go
          and that id fight my corner maybe tonight.         I'll call yah after my blood turns into Alcohol
                   I just wanna hold yah..
           give a little time to me or burn this out
        we'll play hide and seek and turn this thing around
            all I want is the taste that your lips allow
                my my my my give me love
                my my my my give me love..        
      
                      Give me love like never before
            'Cause lately I've been craving more          And it's been a while but I still feel the same                 Maybe I should let you go,
                You know I'll fight my corner,
               And that tonight I'll call ya,
            After my blood is drowning in alcohol,
                No, I just wanna hold ya.
               You know I'll fight my corner
               And that tonight I'll call yah
             after my blood is drowning in Alcohol
                 I just wanna hold yah..
            give a little time to me or burn this out.                  we'll play hide and seek
               and turn this around all I want
             is the taste that your lips allow
               my my my my give me love
               my my my my give me love..)
This is another one of my songs to you this is my last song till we see each other again.. know I'll always love you I'll never stop and that my Door is forever open if you need anything!! Take care my love..