Uhhg Dreams!!

How is it I'm over her and she continues to haunt my dreams.. contantly... she's forgotten about me she's moved on so its time I do too but why can't I?? I drempt about her tonight.. she came around to talk which was what I wanted but I had somethings to do that day so I told her and some other friends  I'd meet up with them later..so I left.. but not before inviting a couple of them to come with me only to have them decline my offer.. while I was leaving I looked back caught her eye and told her while talking to every one I'll be back soon...and while I was gone I just thought about her..went to the store went to work then couldn't take it any more I had to go back.. soo I finished my tasks and came back I was in the trying to go back into the house when I kinda fell through the door.. I didn't understand why and was really emberassed.. lol needless to say every one laughed but she just looked she seemed hurt.. and I think she was physically... she was sitting on a couch and had let her arm dangle on the back side of the couch..I was still kinda on the floor and I just leaned against to couch and held her arm to my head.. she began to pull it away when I said you don't know how much I've missed you.. as soon as I said it I wished I had taken it back..and what happened next made any doubt of that true.. she looked at me and said Tyann... and I knew.. my heart dropped I told her I was sorry and that I didn't mean it.. I went over to her and saw the cut.. it was deep so I told her I would take care of her.. she told me no.. I picked her up so I could find help..she was now in my arms and I didn't wanna let go.. she was hurt when she first came and knew it was a matter of time..she had told me she wanted to talk but I didn't wanna hear it soo I kept walking and some how we found ourselfs in a store.. so tired of walking I slid down to the floor.. I called out for help.. I but know one seemed to hear me.. there was several people around.. and no one came to help... really hard time.. I brought her closer to me and I just kept telling her Your gonna be alright, I love you, I'm not givivng up, I choose you!! I couldn't believe it she was leaving me.. I started to scream again for help and no one could seem to hear me she just looked at me and said let me go.. I told her I couldn't that I was gonna find help.. she looked at me and said I've beem helped that I know but... and I said I know I'm wrong to try to hold on to you.. but I do love you.. and in that moment she was gone.. I didn't know what to do so I just cried.. she was the one person I had ever fought so hard for never giving up always trying harder and harder to find a why to keep her.. only to have her slip away.. I'm trying not to be angry,mad,sad, or depressed.. we had a lot of great times.. we had days were we .... well were I was genuinly happy were I wasn't worried or scared.. I learned a lot from her really I did but I'm also learning to let go.. I started this note at 3:30 this morning.. only to not finish it till now but not before getting a message from her telling me she's in town.. lol wow.. well that's that.. I don't know what I'm doing any more let alone who to talk to about it!!any way I'm tired of feeling scared.. every time like I'm going to go back to the woman I once was.. she was my heart and I loved her just as well soo how do you let that go truly?? When I find out I'll let you know.. she doesn't seem to care any way just wants to lure me out to get me all twisted again... we will see...