Twi§ed

When it comes down to it if it wasn't for my dream I think I would have dropped everything just to be with you.. I'm not saying you feel the same way but that I feel this way and even tho I want kids well I think I rather be single for the rest of my life than to not be with you.. they say I'll get over you but I've had seven years to get over you and I haven't so why try to start now?? I love you and I can't stand not being able to be near you.. I wanna be with you and I just wanna be close to you. I wanna hold you I wanna be able to know that true happieness is yours and mine.. these past few days have been torture because I feel like I can't breath I feel excited and anxious at the same time I feel heavy and light I feel happy because I know its you but I'm sad because you may never be mine.. I'm alive because with you is life but I'm dead because I can never see you or be next to you again!! I wanna explode and tell every one I'm in love with you.. but I can't.. I want to I feel every part of me feel this way feel like this is right but then there's that part that part that says its wrong and that you don't feel the same way if I knew if I knew for sure that you don't feel for me what I feel for you well then and only then maybe I'll be able to move on.. I think lol.. I don't know maybe its an infatuation yeah maybe I'm infatuated with you or something?? I don't know but I feel this way ok get this the 19th I was with my mom and sisters at a store I was walking around just thinking about the convo you and I just had and this song comes on I don't know the song but all I could think about is you!! You were all I thought about now ppl can't say oh its because I'm not dating nope cuz if I wanted two there are three guys who would be interested but I'm not into them right now.. nope you are the one drivng me crazy!! I don't know if I can do this any more I feel my self just slipping away.. why do you do this to me?? How come you can do this to me?? Why?? I'm not mad just confused how just a hi from you sends me spinning?? When you look at me I'm doing the jig! And when I hug you girl you got me running a marathon...nope you got me doing a triathlon !! Lol corny I know but true!! I wanna be better for you I wanna be stable so your not jumping around! I wanna be your solid.. like you've been mine..I wanna ohh man Damn girl you got me twi§ed!!!  Not cool at all
07/24/13