Goodbye

This has to truly be the second hardest thing I have to do in my life.. the first was telling you how I felt about you and allowing my self to feel that.. the second is really letting you go I hate myself for having to do this but if I don't I'll just be a mess for the rest of my life.. I love you soo much its crazy its unhealthy for me to love you that much I love you soo much that if I loved you any more I could die..maybe of a broken heart or something of that sort lol any way I'm writing because its just time I let you go you have been the solid in my life for over 7 years and I love you for it!! You have been there for me more than I was there for you... I can't believe I'm doing this.. I thought I saw you today at the park.. I didn't turn around because I knew to do so would just hurt me even more.. I hate not knowing if I'll ever talk to you again or if I'll ever see you again you were always the strongest out of the both of us and always helped me when I needed it even when you didnt want to.. i've taken you for granted and knew i did..you were difficult at first i didnt know how to be around you with the way i felt about you of course i didn't know what i was really feeling then i just didnt know.. but thats no excuse.. I have to say Goodbye now.. I love you too much i wanna be near you soo bad its killing me really it is and we both know that will never happen so because i believe what i do i have to say bye.. my heart breaks with every word i write i and a tear falls with every word I write.. I never Wanted to have to say Goodbye to you. I thought you and i would know each other for ever but i think its time i really do hate this but if i continue im just sighning myself to my death..but babygirl if you take any thing from me let it be this you are amazing !!! You deserve the world dont settle for less than that your ment for greatness my love. Go after it make that difference in the world my love.. There are many people who are waiting for you to walk into their lives and make a difference.. I've been telling you for years that your ment for this greatness and I still believe it love.. Maybe one day you may walk into a classroom and I may be sitting in the corner.. I miss you sol much ...ha you know I've always have been the mushy one and I know you hate that mushy crap lol but you know I love you soo much.. soo much if I get over you it would be a miracle .. you have always been a big part in my life and to not have you in it sucks. I don't wanna say Good-bye I've never been good at it so I'm just gonna let this be the end I love you sooo much Paula..remember that always remember that when a man loves you enough to give you the world and treats you like a Queen then and only then is he right ohh how can I forget my babies?? They too must be treated like the little princesses that they truly are.. give Cloey my love on her birthday I truly do miss them both so much!! They won't remember me at all so I guess it would be ok for them.. but for me I'll always love you three. My Girls..thanks for all that you taught me all the advice all the love you've given me and just your friendship overall thank you so much for being you. If we cross paths again I pray it be on great terms and I pray that time around it be for life that you'd be able to stay.. I love you BabyGirlPMA..I love you soooo much it hurts... Good-bye