I don't know how to explain just how it feels to just wanna give up to end every thing that's going on! I just wanna stop feeling feeling this way towards other females and this way to other ppl in general!! I hate the fact that all I've been doing is loving and caring being there for other ppl and I don't get any type of true kindness back at all I just want some one to look at me and see as I see in others and to never give up on me some one who will stick around when I try to push them away! Someone who will just wanna sit out side with me and look at the stars some one who will pick up the guitar and try and play me a song some one who will just listen to me when times are just bad and when I'm crying because of all the frustrastion will just allow me to soak up their shirt!! Some one who is willing to get up early morning to cme and just walk with me as part of my exciercise!! I just want to be loved and loved right!!