WHAT NOW!!!

Ok soo I've been having a hard time with something I think I'm confused not sure.. Let me explain.. I miss you like nothing else matters.. really I do.. sometimes I look for you and I see you in every one that passes by.. then there are days where I don't want you around like I know if I become close again I'm gonna go right back to my broken heart ...because I know we aren't ment to be!! You've made that clear!! I know... I've tried to love another but I rather be alone for now I guess... I don't know how to really feel.. because again I miss you way too much.. what's happening?? Why do I feel this way this love hate relationship does not work for me its makeing me feel... I don't know.. soo WHAT NOW??

[ I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger, now what, so I say
But something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out
What now? What now?

I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And she just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again

Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out
What now? Please tell me
What now?

There's no one to call cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone
Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Somebody tell me
What now?

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know ow ow why
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know ow ow why
So WHAT NOW?? ]
What Now : Rihanna
 
These words are true to the soul!! Its how I feel!! So I guess I'll just wait it out..