You!!

Hey soo I really shouldn't have asked you that question the other day.. that was selfish of me .. I know you may think ok what ever but it matters to me.. look for years I loved you as in wanting to be with you.. and also for more years than I was in love with you you were my friend ( to me you were my best friend) and when I started to have feelings for you well that to me started to make things difficult to be around you due to I wasn't ready to talk it out lound with you yet.. and you know this past year has been more well how do I say I've grown a pair and became a little more bolder right.. I couldn't imagine my life without you I told you before that even tho you didn't like me like that that I wouldn't try to be that girl that thought I had a chance even though I didn't.. you told me to fine some one else and for me I just felt like there was no one like you and I still stand by that your you no one else can be you. You have this thing about you that draws people to you and one day you will be able to use that for a good reason.. why am I saying all of this?? Well because I'm truly sorry I'm sorry for allowing my self to fall for you I'm sorry for falling Deep in to what was sand.. its rough its grity and not welcomed in places its not supposed to be.. I ask my self why you why do I love you soo much why do I care about you the way I do and I still don't know why..I don't know.. really I don't but I'll tell you this.. I can't do this any more.. I can't keep wanting to be around you it kills me when your not around.. it hurts to think that for 7 years I've thought we were friends and you seem to still play Games... or what ever it is I really don't know what.. the sad part is that even though I say I'm done if you called just wanting to talk or needing something i'd be there for you I would try to get you what ever it is that you wanted or needed.. I love you that much not if the girlfriend type of way but as in I'm always gonna have your back.. I'm like that annoying thing you can't get rid of.. that thing you want gone but when its gone you miss.. lol that me lol.. sad I know and no its not that I don't know how to let go nope.. its just that's just the way my heart works always loving on someone lol... I can't help it!!... any way again I'm sorry for any pain or time I may have caused you.. I'm sorry for not just being a friend and wanting more I'm sorry for every thing.. hope all is well and take care....

      Love always Ty..