I think I may have met the one, ha-ha okay maybe not but hey that's wishful thinking right yeah you bet. Okay so this is whats going on my heart and all its feelings are still there but the best thing for me to do really is to try to stay away from my temptation. I can't afford to Keep walking that way. I know what I is not what I need let alone really should have. The thing is that I know that if I really just allow things to happen the way they need to happen then maybe just maybe my life will be okay but its not and really i don't know how to change that. Even though i really want things to be different. But there not and i don't know what to do to change it. Not that there is any way to change it. This is my life and there is not much I can Change. I wouldn't know how to change it well thats it for today soo yea later ME