Troubles

im listening to the troubles
that are around me
they being to pull me
down into a vast pool
of fear and darkness
im trying to find my
way back to were i
belong but only i
end up going deeper in
the farther i go
the more i feel like this is
what i deserve
like i have been such the
person that has
aloud this to happen to
those around me
that i have not been there for those
that have really called for me
i don't know
i continue to fall deeper and deeper
until i just give in